August 2009
21 posts
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than...”
– Anais Nin
What foods start with the letter u?
“The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man...”
Things I wont ever forget or how to tell he is...
…the mesmerising sight of him sitting in my car, denying that he was still in contact with her, sweating. Hard, like an actor under the lights.
I watched as first, beads peppered his brow and his top lip. His hair dampened along his forehead as the sweat made salty tracks down his face, into his beautiful green eyes, joining the pool collecting at his chin before falling off.
I stiffled a...
...last night or things not to do when you're...
the bed seemed too foreign without him next to me, I let the darkness take my hurt and hide it outside the door. Lost and grieving, his arms a familiar space where I could chase sleep and pretend that I didn’t know those same arms belonged to a man skilled in fuckwittery.
He wanted reassurance through tenderness, his lips touched my neck,and I moved away, but the feel of his tears on my...
“All a girl really wants is for one guy to prove to her that they are not all the...”
– Marilyn Monroe
Ex-Factor by Lauryn Hill
I wish this...
it's the hope that keeps us holding on.
why is it that every time i feel a little lonely, i come running back to you. i just get my hopes up for someone who could care less about me. then, it all turns into dissapointment. you made me think about doing things i would never do. the crazy part? i actually considered it. i was willing to risk my values all for someone who just wants another easy girl.
guess what? i’m not easy. i am...
“i stood at the phone, he still hasn’t called, and then you feel so low you...”
– taylor swift
...love, am I a fool to believe in you?
I’m here again. So familiar this place, that I don’t even reach the shearing engulfing rage I felt the first time. I wont ever feel that way again, wont ever cry the pain of losing my punchdrunklove vision of my ”perfect for me man” I watched him trying to hide his true self, trying to weave half truths, soothe and beguile me with his beautiful tears, his regret, his...
Bones
Him: So, do you still see Charlie?
Her: Yeah
Him: and is she still...You know big?
Her: You know, I don't think she's big, I just think she's like you know, big boned.
Him: What? You mean like big dinosaur bones big?
Some people are just so wrong!
Boys and Girls
Why is he talking to me about motor racing? Doesn’t he know I have a uterus?
Kate Nash Nicest Thing.
Her lyrics make my soul...
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are...”
– Nelson Mandela
“Most conversations are simply monologues delivered in the presence of witnesses.”
– Margaret Millar
Days like these?
I wake up angry, he has this pattern of behaviour that makes me want to slap him into adulthood. Ive included him in my plans for today, he repays me by staying up till 4am and sleeping in late till the afternoon.
I say goodbye to my early start, and watch him sleeping, my anger seeping out with every breath. He does this a lot. He does this everytime. He does this to us.
Days like these I want...