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I don’t know what to think

So last week I was hanging out with my friend and we were talking about boys, because that’s what teenage girls do. I was talking to her about the guy I liked and she said something like, “I might have a boy, but I don’t want to tell you who, I don’t want to jinx it.” I was like whatever and I guessed a few guys and didn’t get it right.

But then friday night I was with her and our other friend and she got a text and our other friend was said something like, “Who’s it from? Let me guess does it start with a J and end with an oel?”
I just thought, “Joel, why didn’t I think of that?” And I said, “Joel? Is that the guy you might have something with but didn’t want to tell me about?” And she said nothing.

The thing is I used to have a crush on Joel. I definitely don’t anymore. Now I’m not sure if she didn’t tell me because she ”didn’t want to jinx it” or becaue she didn’t know how I’d react. And obviously she didn’t mind telling my other friend that they might have a thing, so why couldn’t she tell me? Like I said I’m so over him.

So should I confront her about it? if I don’t it will probably drive me insane. If I do she’ll just do that thing that she says when she’s trying to avoid conflict, (starting with a big dramatic sigh), “Oh Lani…” blah blah blah. Which is almost equally annoying.